Wednesday, April 29, 2009

i've never puked on anyone.

i watched a couple funny julian smith videos today.

julian smith.

his existence confuses me.

he seems famous. but he's not famous. he's just some guy who makes funny videos. high quality videos. with actors. and scripts. but he's not famous. who is this guy?

i think he lives in nashville, too. which makes him even more puzzling. maybe he seems familiar because i have seen him around or something.

i have no idea.

but watch these.



Tuesday, April 28, 2009

you asked for it.

no, actually you didn't.

just a little forward that was sent to me the other day:

Why I'd hate to leave Texas

Have you ever looked at a map of the world? Look at Texas with me just for a second. That picture, with the Panhandle and the Gulf Coast , and the Red River and the Rio Grande is as much a part of you as anything ever will be. As soon as anyone anywhere in the world looks at it they know what it is. It's Texas . Pick any kid off the street in Japan and draw him a picture of Texas in the dirt and he'll know what it is. What happens if I show you a picture of any other state? You might get it maybe after a second or two, but who else would? And even if you do, does it ever stir any feelings in you?

In every man, woman and child on this planet, there is a person who wishes just once he could be a real live Texan and get up on a horse or ride off in a pickup. There is a little bit of Texas in everyone.

Texas is the Alamo . Texas is 183 men standing in a church, facing thousands of Mexican nationals, fighting for freedom, who had the chance to walk out and save themselves, but stayed instead to fight and die for the cause of freedom.

We send our kids to schools named William B. Travis and James Bowie and Davy Crockett, and do you know why? Because those men saw a line in the sand and they decided to cross it and be heroes.

John Wayne paid to do the movie himself . That is the Spirit of Texas .

Texas is Sam Houston capturing Antonio Lopez de Santa Ana at San Jacinto .

Texas is huge forests of Piney Woods like the Davy Crockett and Sam Houston National Forests .

Texas is breathtaking mountains in the Big Bend .

Texas is the unparalleled beauty of bluebonnet fields in the Texas Hill Country.
Texas is floating the rivers of the Hill Country on a hot summer day.

Texas is the beautiful, warm beaches of the Gulf Coast of South Texas.
Texas is beaches you can drive on and have many memorable bon-fires with close friends.
Texas is that warm feeling you get when someone asks where you're from.

Texas is the shiny skyscrapers in Houston and Dallas.

Texas is world record bass from places like Lake Fork .

Texas is Mexican foods like nowhere else, not even Mexico .
Texas is chicken fried steak and world famous Bar-B-Q.

Texas is the Fort Worth Stockyards, Bass Hall, the Ballpark in Arlington and the Astrodome. (guess now the Reliant Stadium too)..

Texas is larger-than-life legends like Michael DeBakey, Bud Frazier, Ann Richards, Denton Cooley, Willie Nelson, Buddy Holly, Gene Autry, Audie Murphy, Tommy Lee Jones, Waylon Jennings, Farrah Fawcet, Janis Joplin, Sandra Bullock, Kris Kristofferson, Tom Landry, Eva Longoria, Darrell Royal, ZZ Top, Eric Dickerson, Earl Campbell, Nolan Ryan, Whitney Canion, Sam Rayburn, Howard Hughes, George H. W.. Bush, Lyndon B. Johnson, and let's not forget GEORGE STRAIT- PANTERA, the Big Bopper, Tex Ritter, George Jones, Clay Walker, Mark Chestnut, to name ONLY a few.

Texas is great companies like Dell Computer, Texas Instruments, EDS and Compaq, Whataburger, Southwest Airlines, Bell Helicopter and LOCKHEED MARTIN AEROSPACE, Home of the F-16 Jet Fighter and the JSF Fighter, Valero.

Texas is NASA.

Texas is huge herds of cattle, beautiful horses and miles of crops.
Texas is home to the world famous King Ranch.

Texas is home to the most amazing sunsets of gold over an empty field.

Texas is hundreds of deer running around neighborhoods and fields.

Texas is skies blackened with doves and fields full of deer.

Texas is a place where towns and cities shut down to watch the local high school football game on Friday nights and for the Cowboys on Monday Night Football, and for the night In Old San Antonio River Parade in San Antonio.

To drive across Texas is to drive 1/3 the way across the United States .

Texas is ocean beaches, deserts, lakes and rivers, mountains and prairies, and modern cities.

If it isn't already in Texas , you probably don't need it.

No one does anything bigger or better than it's done in Texas .

By federal law, Texas is the only state in the U...S. That can fly its flag at the same height as the U.S. Flag. Think about that for a second. You fly the Stars and Stripes at 20 feet in Maryland , California , or Maine , and your state flag, whatever it is, goes at 17 feet. You fly the Stars and Stripes in front of Klein Oak High or anyplace else at 20 feet, the Lone Star flies at the same height - 20 feet. Do you know why? Because it is the only state that was a Republic before it became a state.

Also, being a Texan is as high as being an American down here. Our capitol is the only one in the country that is taller than the capitol building in Washington , D.C. And we can divide our state into five states at any time if we wanted to!We can become a republic again at any time the voters of Texas choose, and we included these things as part of the deal when we came on.
That's the best part, right there.

Texas even has its own power grid!!

Did I mention Live music capitol of the world?

GOD BLESS TEXAS !

Monday, April 27, 2009

overheard conversations: two new mothers

you don't even want to know.

i wish i hadn't heard that.

Sunday, April 26, 2009

i used to quote napoleon dynamite.

after a long day i felt the need to unwind.

i settled into my comfy recliner (which is not aesthetically pleasing, but is still pretty awesome), and started to read...

macbeth.

what? i'm reading shakespeare?

i feel like i'm too ridiculous of a person to read shakespeare.

but...

dude has a way with words.

"There's no art
To find the mind's construction in the face."

"Stars, hide your fires;
Let not light see my black and deep desires."

"To catch the nearest way; thou wouldst be great,
Art not without ambition, but without
The illness should attend it."

"Your face, my Thane, is a book where men
May read strange matters. To beguile the time,
Look like the time: bear welcome in your eye,
Your hand, your tongue. Look like th' innocent flower,
But be the serpent under't."

"Only look up clear.
To alter favor ever is to fear."

lucky for me, this book explains all of it.

shakespeare.

i'm diggin it.

Saturday, April 25, 2009

people of uncultivated tastes

i know everyone has different taste in movies. and no one's taste is superior.

but...

slumdog millionaire.

best picture?

really?

i'm not saying it was a bad movie. it was a unique plot. it was a good movie. but a great movie? i don't think so. if i hadn't known it won best picture, i would have stopped watching after 10 or 15 minutes, because nothing interesting was happening. ok, so that's a lie. i always finish movies, even bad ones. but theoretically...i would have stopped.

and the weirdest part to me...

in every preview i saw for this movie, it had clips of them dancing by the trains. so i thought this was going to be some sort of weird indian musical or something.

but that wasn't even part of the movie. that was part of the credits.

why in the world would they put clips from the credits in the previews?

maybe i'm missing something. someone will probably comment and explain why the dancing part was significant. and i'd love to know, so please do.

today i finished reading "the reason for God" by tim keller (who may someday be deemed a great author), and i'm starting macbeth by shakespeare. and most people agree...shakespeare is pretty great.

i read "much ado about nothing" once. it was funny. i've heard macbeth is "great."

educated and uneducated people alike appreciated his plays. at least that's what my word-a-day calendar said. the word was "groundlings."

does the fact that i refer to a word-a-day calendar as a source of knowledge discredit everything i say?

Thursday, April 23, 2009

overheard conversations: on the playground

i think i'm going to have a segment on my blog. you know, like a routine thing i do. that's what all the hip bloggers do. i can be hip. (everyone i know is shaking their heads right now...)

but really, i overhear a lot of funny conversations. not every day or anything. who knows how often this will be reported on my blog. but here's a start.

today on the playground:

(the names of the children have been changed, because...i'm not creepy)

susie: hey...what is that man's name?
teacher: you mean that...little boy...in the other class?
susie: yes.
teacher: his name is johnny-steals-a-lot-but-he-gets-away-with-it-because-he's-cute-and-everyone-thinks-he's-an-angel
susie: oh. what is that girl's name?
teacher: you know her name.
susie: little-girl-who-screams-to-get-her-way-and-then-laughs-as-soon-as-she-does
teacher: yep. that's her name.
susie: she has mulch on her bottom.
teacher: yes. yes she does.

(i also wanted to change the names so i could vent a little)

until next time. keep it classy. *wink*

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

i used to be indecisive, but now i'm not sure.

we finally got the report back on our evaluation. it took two months. we knew we passed, but my boss wouldn't give us our bonus until she saw our individual room scores. a recap: we did well. really well. but didn't get any credit from our boss until today. the state said "good job!" my boss said "we'll wait and see if it was good."

but we got what she called a "really high toddler score!" teachers with our age group don't usually score well because the kids are so impossible at this age. but we did well, and i'm getting my bonus.

which means i will get to say goodbye to .002% of my student loans. cha-ching!

and today's funny observation:

we have a couple cars in the classroom that they can ride around on. today i saw one kid riding on a car, but he also wanted to work a puzzle. the choice was too much for him. so he rode his car up to the puzzle shelf, and worked a puzzle while sitting on the car. what a generation we're raising.

Friday, April 17, 2009

hiatus over.

this has been a "dark" year for me, and one of the side effects has been that my sense of humor was suppressed for some reason. not completely, but...i used to laugh every day. about a bunch of things that nobody else ever even notices. not because i'm insane, but because...that's just part of my sense of humor.

ANYWAY

it's coming back.

today a little girl in my class started spinning in circles for no reason. in no other environment would that be socially acceptable.

and i forgot how much i love quotes too. i'm watching hulu. this is what i laughed at today:

from the office...

"do you respect dibs?"
"i'm not a barbarian..."

"let me be your travelling pants."

from bones...

"it would kind of ruin the magic if you found out satan's real name is todd or larry."

and i would like to know if it's necessary for pregnancy test makers to clarify that their tests are designed "just for women"...? because i saw a commercial today where that was emphasized.

Thursday, April 16, 2009

i've noticed that very few people are scary once they've been poked in the eye.

booth: voodoo. ha! who would believe in that?
bones: it's no different than what you believe. what's your religion?
booth: i'm catholic.
bones: it's basically the same. you both have saints and priests.
booth: we don't make zombies.
bones: Jesus came back from the dead...
booth: Jesus is not a zombie. i shouldn't have to tell you that.


angela: when are you coming back?
bones: the cops won't let me leave.
angela: what? why?
bones: don't worry. i made bail.
angela: you...made bail? what's going on? are you ok?
bones: i'm fine. the murder charge won't stick.
angela: the murder charge....what is going on?
bones: bye! talk to you later!
angela: does anyone else think it's a terrible idea for her to be running around the country chasing down criminals?
hodgins: don't worry. she made bail... the murder charge won't stick...

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

corpses = romance

jim and pam are engaged. their relationship is settled and secure. the office is still my favorite show, but i used to watch it partly because it was so fun to watch their relationship develop.

now that they're taken care of...

booth and bones are the new jim and pam.

i've been watching "bones" for a few years now because i think it's hilarious. but now i'm noticing that i enjoy the "booth and bones" aspect of it as well.

the main character, bones, is so funny to me. she's a scientist, and she is the most rational person ever. she has completely shut off her emotions, and uses logic to deal with life. so if someone ever says anything even vaguely tainted with emotion to her, she replies "i don't know what you're saying to me." and she means it. she helps solve murders by examining skeletons. someone asked her "what does your gut tell you about this case?" and she said "i don't actually use my gut for that."

booth is the fbi agent that she works for. and he's a Christian, which is an interesting part of the show. unexpected. she obviously doesn't believe in God, so they have weird dialogue about that. funny dialogue.

and they're totally going to fall in love. i think it's season five. it's about time for some lovin'.

a cute little clip:

(background info: they have to see an fbi psychologist because they work together, and with disturbing cases)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RjT3EelAb6c

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

i'm a butterfly dreaming i'm a person.

i'm reading a tim keller book, and my dad called me and asked me what i was reading, so i told him about it. and then i sent my dad a link to an hour long youtube video. it's tim keller at google, giving a lecture.

the first half is him talking about his book "the reason for God."

i could sit and listen to discussions like this, or take part in them, all day. i love it when my intellect is engaged like that. i love thinking about Him. and hearing debates about Him. and reasoning through tough questions regarding Him.

after he discusses the book, he takes questions from the audience. which is full of atheists and agnostics who want to stump him. it's fun to listen to. he doesn't always have a great answer, but the dialogue is great.

the last question:

this guy walks up and asks what he thinks is a brilliant question. "so...there's another religion you may not have heard of. it's all about me. i'm god. i think you should worship me. why don't you?"

and tim says...

"there's not enough time for me to really address that. so here's the snarky answer: as soon as you give your life for me, and come back to life, i might consider it."

which is the perfect way for the talk to end. after so much discussion, and thought, and reasoning...

and after i read a lot of books about theology...

i am faced with the person of Christ. not just logic. not just reason. not just a theory, or a moral way of life, or an intellectually stimulating debate. a person. and more than i love learning about Him, or thinking about Him, i love the moments when i'm really able to remember how mesmerizing He is. because of the brokenness of this world, and the problems i deal with daily, those moments don't come as often as they should. but when they do...

i'm ok. everything is ok.

side note:

i used to grieve over the fact that i would never be able to go hear c.s. lewis speak. he is my favorite author. he's also dead. i've spent many moments just wishing i had lived at the same time as c.s. lewis. i don't even know what i would do if i was ever around him. giggle uncontrollably? (uhhh, apparently my obsession with old or dead men continues...) anyway. while i was watching this video, i realized...tim keller is very similar to him. he lacks british flair, but he's pretty good. and i've already gotten to hear him speak once. i'm just saying. it's the next best thing.

Monday, April 13, 2009

a flashback.

first, a random fact about my apartment:

my kitchen lights only work in the morning. any insight as to why that might be?

so...

i'm reading "the reason for God" by tim keller. finally. i didn't want to buy it for myself, because it's so overpriced. but my sister gave it to me for my birthday! the celebration of my existence continues.

chapter 2: how can a good God allow suffering and evil?

big topic.

i remembered i once gave a speech titled "the existence of evil proves the existence of God."

as a freshman in college!

i now realize how bold that was, and i have no idea why i was not intimidated by the topic. youthful arrogance?

i even remember turning in the topic for approval. and my professor balked and said "you're going to need some really good arguments." and i was just like "yeah, ok...no big deal..."

i got myself an A too. (it's true. i remember my grades.)

apparently that arrogance still lingers.

what a year looks like.

easter 2008.




easter 2009.




go ahead and say it.

aww.

five weeks and i get to see her!

Saturday, April 11, 2009

my quarters seem flatter than usual.

good friday:

lunch with someone in my neighborhood group

coffee with one of my college roommates that i haven't seen in forever

no tornado

my first good friday service with "the coolest church in the whole world"


saturday:


go use the borders gift cards i got for my birthday

feel happy that it's saturday, and not sunday

wonder: is it "flatter" or "more flat" ? but really, they do. seem flatter.

tomorrow:

remember that my troubles are light and momentary

Thursday, April 9, 2009

ready to celebrate.

so glad it's easter weekend. forever.



when i'm weary, and overwrought
with so many battles left unfought...

i see a man of sorrows and his long, troubled road
i see the world on his shoulders and my easy load

Wednesday, April 8, 2009

weary.

i had a few weeks where i was feeling good about life. feeling like myself. feeling less afraid. feeling funny. feeling relaxed. feeling confident. feeling ok about how things are.

and then today.

today things happened that are too complicated to explain.

tonight i go to sleep worrying that i'm going to get fired over nothing. fired over miscommunications. fired over lies. fired because of a bully. fired because i'm not perfect.

i'm so tired of this. i'm just so tired of this.

Monday, April 6, 2009

my car passed 200 thousand miles today.

no explosions yet.

i bet it still gets better gas mileage than yours.

and i got a letter from my grandma...

she used a rainbow of colors to write it.

"your Grandpa bought me a variety of color pens. you can see i'm trying them out."

if you're not laughing at the subtle, and completely unintentional, hilarity...i don't know why you even read my blog.

Sunday, April 5, 2009

this is my 200th post...

...and considering how i sometimes cram 7 unrelated ideas into one post, that's at least 1000 things you didn't need to know about me. cheers.

only three unrelated ideas today:

1) last night i dreamed that my dad quoted something he considered wise. but i gently informed him that it was a karl marx quote. whoops.

2) i went on a retreat with my church and learned that one of my spiritual gifts is knowledge. which is mostly useless. awesome. unless i want to go to seminary and then become a Bible professor. and my knowledge tells me that aquiring more student loan debt, especially in this economy, is the worst idea ever. actually that's not knowledge. that's common sense. darn it.

3) an excellent question:

"I've got to ask something: why is it that whenever someone does something blasphemous or wrong, people joke around about God striking them with lightning? I've blogged about this before, but when was that precedent ever set? As far as I know, God never used lighting to kill someone in the Bible. A Great Flood? Check. Giant hole in the ground? Sure. But lightning? Zeus maybe, but not Jehovah. On top of that, why are we so afraid of lightning strikes anyway? They only kill about 80 people a year in the U.S. whereas horse-related injuries kill over 200 people a year. Maybe next time someone does something wrong, instead of saying “watch out for the lightning bolt!” we should say, 'Ride ‘em cowboy!'"

- stuff christians like blog

Wednesday, April 1, 2009

i have failed them.

i'm bringing home a baby bumblebee
won't my mommy be so proud of me?
i'm bringing home a baby bumblebee
ouch! it stung me!

i'm squishing up a baby bumblebee
won't my mommy be so proud of me?
i'm squishing up a baby bumblebee
ewww! it's all over me!

i'm wiping off a baby bumblebee
won't my mommy be so proud of me?
i'm wiping off a baby bumblebee
byebye, baby bumblebee...


a kid in my class tried to catch an actual bee today.